Grief is supposed to come in waves, right? That’s what everyone kept telling me. That one minute, I’d be numb, and the next, I’d be drowning in it.
But as I stood at my husband’s funeral, watching people lower their heads in sympathy, I didn’t feel waves.
I felt nothing.
Maybe it hadn’t hit me yet. Maybe I had exhausted all my tears in the days leading up to today, while I signed paperwork, took calls, and made myself believe it was all real.
Nicolas was gone.
My husband, the man I had built a life with, the man I trusted more than anyone, was suddenly just… gone.
As the last of the guests trickled out of the cemetery, I finally let myself breathe.
That’s when I noticed her.
An old woman I had never seen before, standing near the grave, holding a baby.
I blinked.
What the hell?
She wasn’t dressed like the other mourners. She wore a thick coat, despite the warmth of the day, and a knitted hat that nearly swallowed her head. The baby in her arms was tiny, wrapped in a blue blanket, sleeping soundly.
I stared at her, my heart thudding.
Who was she?
And why hadn’t she left like everyone else?
A strange uneasiness settled over me. I didn’t want to approach her, but something about the way she stood there, watching me, made it impossible to ignore.
I took a slow step forward.
“Excuse me,” I said cautiously. “Who… who are you?”
The old woman lifted her head, her eyes filled with something I couldn’t place.
“To him, I’m nobody,” she said softly. “But it’s about who I’ve got here.”
She adjusted the baby in her arms. “This is his child.”
The ground beneath me vanished.
I let out a sharp laugh, one that sounded nothing like me. “I’m sorry—what?”
She stepped forward. “Your husband… he can’t be with the baby’s mother anymore. You’re the only one who can raise him.”
Raise him?
The words barely registered.
My stomach twisted violently.
“You’re insane,” I whispered, my hands curling into fists. “My husband was perfect. He would never—”
“I don’t blame you for thinking that,” she interrupted. “But the truth is the truth.”
I took a step back, my pulse pounding in my ears.
This was a joke. A sick, twisted joke.
I shook my head, willing myself to wake up.
“No,” I snapped. “Whatever scam you’re trying to pull, it won’t work on me. Get out of here.”
The woman didn’t flinch.
Instead, she simply placed a small envelope at the foot of the grave.
“Everything you need to know is in there,” she murmured. “You can hate him. You can ignore it. But don’t punish the child for his father’s mistakes.”
I wanted to scream at her, to rip that envelope apart, to tell her she was lying.
But I couldn’t move.
I lingered by the grave long after she disappeared, my mind a storm of denial and fury.
Finally, I forced myself to walk away.
But just as I reached my car, I heard something behind me.
A sharp cry.
I turned around.
And oh God—the baby was on the ground.
Alone.
The woman was gone.
I didn’t want to take the baby.
I told myself to call the police, let them deal with it.
But before I knew it, I was scooping him up, my body acting on instinct. He was so small, his fingers barely curling around the fabric of my dress.
I stared down at him, my heart hammering.
Could this really be Nicolas‘s child?
I grabbed the envelope and drove home, my hands trembling on the wheel.
For hours, I sat in my living room, the unopened letter burning a hole in my lap.
Finally, I ripped it open.
Inside was a handwritten note.
“Nicolas never meant to hurt you. But he wasn’t the man you thought he was.”
“Her name was Julia. She was in an accident two months ago. Nicolas paid me to care for him, but now that he’s gone, the baby—Lucas—has no one else.”
“You don’t have to take him in. But if you want to know the truth about your husband, check the safe behind the painting in your bedroom.”
My stomach flipped.
Nicolas’s safe.
I ran up the stairs and yanked the painting from the wall, my fingers working frantically at the lock.
The door swung open, revealing a stack of papers.
I pulled them out.
And my world collapsed.
Bank statements. Secret payments.
A second apartment lease.
And at the very bottom—a birth certificate.
Lucas Nicolas Carter.
My husband’s name.
I let out a strangled sound, somewhere between a laugh and a sob.
It was true.
Nicolas had been living a double life.
And now… he had left me to pick up the pieces.
I don’t know how long I sat there, the papers strewn across my lap, the baby sleeping peacefully beside me.
I should have been furious.
And I was.
But as I looked at Lucas, so small, so innocent, I realized something.
None of this was his fault.
He hadn’t chosen to be born into this mess.
He hadn’t chosen to be abandoned.
And in that moment, I made a decision that would change both our lives forever.
I picked up my phone and dialed a number.
Not the police.
Not a lawyer.
But a pediatrician.
“I need to schedule an appointment,” I said, my voice steadier than I expected. “For my son.”
The words felt strange.
But they also felt right.
Nicolas may have left me with nothing but betrayal, but he had also left me with a choice.
And it felt like I was making the right one.
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