I didn’t plan on falling asleep. I just wanted to rest my eyes for a second. It had already been hours.
Six, to be exact.
I got there early—showered, shaved, cleanest shirt I own, earbuds in with her favorite songs playing on loop. Bought the roses from that old guy on 6th who always throws in an extra one when you overpay in cash. Sat down on the bench where we said we’d meet. She picked the spot. Said it had “good energy.”
At first, I thought she was just running late. Traffic, maybe. Or nerves. God knows I had them too. Last time we saw each other, things ended… badly. But when she called last week, said she wanted to talk face-to-face, I thought maybe, just maybe, this was it.
A second chance.
I replayed all the things I wanted to say. The apology. The truth. The stupid joke I thought might make her smile. But the hours dragged. I started checking my phone so much it died. People passed by. Some glanced at the flowers. One guy even asked if I was waiting for someone important. I said, “Yeah. The most important.”
I must’ve dozed off at some point. Now the sky’s dim, my jeans are covered in dust, and the only thing paying attention to me is this stray dog sniffing one of the fallen roses.
But right before my phone died… I got one last notification.
It was a message—from her.
And all it said was:
“I couldn’t do it. I’m sorry.”
That was it. No explanation. No follow-up.
Just seven words.
I stared at the screen until it went black.
At first, I felt… nothing. Then everything all at once. Confusion. Anger. Embarrassment. But mostly? Hurt.
Because it wasn’t just about being stood up. It was about hope. I’d let myself believe in something again. That maybe all the time apart meant something. That people change. That maybe I did.
I sat there for a while longer, even though I knew she wasn’t coming. The stray dog curled up at my feet like he knew I needed company. I gave him the extra rose the flower guy had slipped in, just to do something with my hands.
I walked home that night slower than I ever had. Carried the rest of the roses with me. Passed a woman digging through a trash can behind the gas station. Without thinking, I offered her the flowers.
She looked at me like I was out of my mind. “For what?”
“Just ‘cause,” I said.
She smiled. “Haven’t held roses in twenty years.”
She took them.
Later that week, I got another message from her. Not a text—an actual letter in my mailbox. Handwritten. Folded neatly.
She said she sat in her car across the street that day for nearly an hour. Watching. Crying. Said she couldn’t bring herself to walk up. Not because she didn’t care. But because she still cared.
She wrote:
“I was scared you’d still love me.
And I’m not sure I deserve that.”
She told me about the things she’d been through—stuff I didn’t know, pain I hadn’t seen, mistakes she thought I’d never forgive.
She was wrong.
But here’s the part that stuck with me most:
“That bench… you looked so sure.
Like you weren’t running anymore.
And I wasn’t ready to catch up to that version of you.”
I cried reading that. Because maybe that’s what love really is—not just timing, but readiness. Being in the same place, not just physically, but emotionally. Spiritually. Honestly.
We haven’t spoken since. I didn’t reply to the letter. Not because I’m angry. But because, for the first time, I’m okay letting go.
That day on the bench, waiting with the roses… I thought I was waiting for her.
But looking back, I think I was really waiting for me.
The version of me that finally showed up. The one who learned patience. Who gave away roses to strangers. Who walked home alone, but not empty.
If you’ve ever waited for something—or someone—and it didn’t go the way you hoped…
Maybe it wasn’t about them.
Maybe it was the day you showed up for yourself.
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